PUSH DOWN AND UNSCREW
That's what I have to do
DO NOT TAKE MORE THAN TWO
Why would I?
I only have a headache
My head is throbbing, aching, nearly breaking
The pain, it bursts through every vein
It pushes all the time, behind my eyes
Like splinters, stabbing through each lid
I open them and cry what feels like blood!
Hot and sore, it doesn't help
A headache, migraine, what you will
Is why I'm holding this bottle of pills
That's why! The only reason!
It's not because I'm screaming inside
It's not because of the pain I hide
It's not because I'm wondering
If I could really…stop…it all!?
…if I could give up trying, crying
saying sorry and being afraid
wishing I were stronger, surer, happier…
a little less crazy?
But it might hurt
And it might not work
And it might just make things worse!
I picture a cell in hell, alone
A disappointed God, 'how could you?'
A torturous drifting, a weeping soul
A vast black sea to drown in
Oil slick fingers suffocating
Strangling and deprecating
A Hamlet hologram glints on the lid
'What dreams may come' if I actually did?